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Name: Natalie
Interests: Jesuuuus, singing my heart out, loooong talks with much laughter, putting my thoughts down on paper, going to shows, giving and getting hugs, beautiful smiles/lips, reading, and l e t t i n g g o...
Expertise: Getting beautifully let down, I guess.
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AIM:  xPassingShadowsx
MSN: passing_shadows@hotmail.com
Member Since:
1/4/2005
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| I'm going to Brasil from June 23rd to the end of July!!!!!!!!! Surf and God every day!!! Yay to summer ;)
Love to all
Beijos | | |
| Life is confusing and full of too many choices you have to make. Agreed?
Haha and then there's your awesome friends that can completely take your mind off everything. That you can laugh with, make garlic chicken with, watch movies with, get fat on ice cream with, take crazy pictures in a tent with, and who you can talk for hours with.
To my friends: You are amazing and I wouldn't last without you guys. Thank you so much. My friends mean the world to me. <3
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| Hmmm I'll start with my Sweet 16. It was a spectacular day! My sister called from Brasil, I had a present waiting for me on the seat of the car so I could open it before work...I showed up to work (everyone was incredibly nice) and there were flowers on my desk =D Then, my mom brought me balloons! 3 guys from Wisconsin came down to stay with us for a day, so that was so fun! They were all hilarious. Jordan and Matty came by, then we took Matty home and just chilled... John (my brother) got me a sweet pair of Nike Shox -navy blue and lavender- so that was freakin' awesome. We went out to eat to Kobe's which is fabulous --the noodles are my favorite-- So, we pull up to my house and my friend Brittany's car was in the driveway...and another white car. It turns out, Brittany, Jason, Ross, Natalie, Lia and Matty were all in my decorated living room waiting to suprise me. I was so happy! I was kind of bummed that I wasn't going to see anyone on my birthday, so this was SO SWEET. Jordan showed up a little later and we sat outside by the lake, playing guitar and singing worship songs. What a great way to spend my birthday. I love you guys <3
The day after my birthday, I worked and then Callie, Cayman and their mom stopped by to give me my presents (thanks so much!) before Jordan took me out to dinner to Michael's Grill. OH MAN...scrumptiousness! That food...the duck, the steak, the mashed potatoes, and the TIRIMISU...was the greatest. Afterwards, we picked up Cal Cal and went to see Miss Congeniality 2. Not bad, but the first was better. Callie slept over that night and man did we have a blast! Laughing so hard until 4ish about Disney movie theme songs...HAHA what a hoot. I love you, Callie baby.
Friday was SO fun! Jordan, Ashley, Steven, Callie and I went to the beach for a total of an hour and then Callie and I swam it up in my pool. Later on, Ashley Kidd, Callie and I went to this small group. Everyone was SO nice and worship was so good. I loved it. But, what makes it a night was the fact that my leg fell through the roof of the fort outside Austin's house. Ashley and I were laughing so hard. THAT is something you only imagine in a movie. Thank God I didn't fall all the way through considering it must have been a story high.
Saturday was boring. Didn't go to the movie. No comment :)
Happy Easter to everyone, by the way. I had a good day and I hope everyone else did, too!
What a great birthday week!
Lovelovelove ~ Natalie | | |
| (I got this from Chrissey and couldn't help but loving it and needing to share it.)
Josh Scogin (lead screamer from The Chariot!) wrote this, and it is the most true piece of knowledge I have ever heard. Please take the time to read this.
*Youth is wasted on our young *
It is this that I have feared the most, that has came to pass.
I was told something the other day that burned inside my bones. Someone said this phrase, "The youth is wasted on our young." At first I was outraged. I wanted to fight back and defend my generation. I wanted to prove how ignorant that statement was. But before the words could escape my lips, I was tormented with how true that statement is. For those who do not understand: what that means is this.... Youth: meaning the point of our lives when we are the most energetic and the most healthy and the most full of passion, is being wasted on our young people, meaning you and me. Our generation. I could not sleep that night because of how disgusted I was. Not, just because somone said it, but mainly because I could not prove it wrong. The statement, unfortunately, is true for the most part. Here we are, with the most energy that we will ever have and absolute health and few to no bills to pay, and what does the average young person do with all of that................sits around and watches tv, or plays on some technological waste of time, or worse yet, they waste all of that energy and zeal on drugs or alcohol, Items that were created for no other reason than to alter your state of mind. Why would anyone want their state of mind to be altered? What has happened to our world that would make someone want to alter his or her existance while we are at our prime age in life and prime strength. To complete the meaning of this old familier phrase it is also stating that adults; like people that are old and older, could better use this "youthfullness" because they have lived long enough to realize that we are all going to die someday, and as a matter of fact, that someday, is soon, and these elders are saying that they would actually do something useful with this, "youthfullness." So we ask ourselves, "Why would they use it so much more passionately and with so much more greatfulness than us young folks?" Well that is easy, because through thier years on this earth they have come to learn that most everything is trivial. And life, as far as on this earth, is short. So they are saying that if they had it to do over they would use thier energy to the fullest extent and there passions would be spent on items that actually mattered and there lives would be much fuller and richer lives. What they are also saying is that, they too, have wasted there youthfullness. Because, they are saying that only now, have they realized that life is so short and most of it is wasted on trivial things or technological advances that do nothing but keep us lazy and dependent on the technology itself. So I say," no!" I am not going to be a part of that stupid phrase. I am still young. I still have energy and passions and zeal and I still have my life. I will not sit back and watch it all go while I stare at a box with moving pixels. I will not be another wasted youth and grow up only to realize that I should have followed my dreams more or always asking, "what if this or what if that." I will not. Isn't that why we are here on earth, to learn from other people's mistakes so that as each generation grows we grow wiser and wiser still. What happened to that? Where are the people who actually care anymore? Is there anyone that cares enough to actually try to be different? Does anyone actually NOT want to be exacly like everyone else? I know that it is easy to just copycat every other person in the world. But isn't there anybody who cares? Am I the only one who cares? Am I the only one that sees this downward spiral going on? I think not. I think that there are many more people that have thought about such things. But I also think far too many people just give up............ on thier dreams.................. on thier goals............on their life. I know way too many people who have not seen the ocean. Do not die having never seen the ocean. Do not wait until you are stuck in the cycle of life and work and sleep, to realize that maybe you should have gone to see the ocean, or any other form of God's amazing works. Don't exit this earth asking, "what if this dream could have came true." You don't ever have to think, 'what if I would have only done ___________?" You never have to think that because we still have today. We have right now. Turn dreams into goals and get them accomplished. Or at least try. I apologize for the length of this passage, but I can not get that out of my head.
You guys, we are the generation. I am going to be crazy for Jesus. I am going to give my life meaning and make it awesome! I'm going to change my attitude to express how incredible life is. How awesome God is for creating me. I want Him to know how much I appreciate my life. I'll let Him know by spreading my energy to others so they'll find the joy I have in Christ. Praise Him! | | |
| Alllllllright...it's been awhile yet again, but here goes: My sister is officially back in Brasil. My dad went with her for the time being and when he comes back, my friend Steven will be coming with him to live with us for a few months. The house feels so empty with 2 of the family gone and John's almost always working *sobs*
Lately I've been trying to figure out how to handle things. How to handle people. Do you let a good friend go when it's too hard to hold on? You tell me, because I have no idea. All I know is that I NEED to go back to school. I feel isolated and I hate it. I seriously don't even talk to most of my friends now...not by my choice most of the time. I feel like I'm always the one that has to make the effort. If they don't care enough to make an effort, then I'm done. On the plus side, all that doesn't hold me back. I know that God is most important, so I've taken hold of that. He is sufficient and lovely and loving. Why get upset over people that don't really love me? I'm so over depending on people of this world. They always let me down. I'm sure a lot of people are thinking "why doesn't Natalie just have fun in her high school years?" Well, I don't like high school so that makes it hard and I know the full picture so it doesn't matter to me. I just want to get old so this madness stops. In the meantime, I WILL try to make the most of life. I WON'T wish my life away and think of what should be because I know I'm in this place for a reason. I DO have those close friends that care, plus that ONE who will always be there for me. Thank you Lord.
Oh, last Saturday night was so fun by the way. Jen went with Lia and me to The Brass Mug and we saw Caius and Bullet Blue Sky and some other band play. A good amount of people showed up...including Jenn and Jenna whom I love for being so sweet. Afterwards, Jordan, Matt, Brittany, and Lia came over (Lia spent the night--our traditional "I haven't seen you in awhile, let's catch up and get no sleep") We seriously talked for at least 8 hours...work it. She's awesome. On Sunday morning, my family (which included Lia) went to The Breakfast Nook -Jordan's work- and ate some delicious food. That's all for now...
Standing here amidst this point of definition
Pushing for position as I battle opposition
Am I on a mission or is it all in vain
Do you notice the difference or is it all the same ?
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You're all alone
Running out of ways to
Hold on to hope
And it always slips away
You're all alone
But you don't have to
Pretend to cope
There is a brighter way
If you would change your perspective
You'd see that it is true
Life is not always what you want
Sometimes it's hard to bear
I'd be with you, and help you in all that you go through
I love you, let Me change your heart by coming in
†Natalie† | | |
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